whispers...

Life is so short... Should we go after our dreams? Or should we make choices based on what is practical?

Who can bring upon one sorrow, anger and regret apart from oneself.. Making practical decision can sometimes result in feeling being caged up or trapped by that choice...

Silent whispers...

No words can describe my feelings. It feels all trapped up in me. Voices speaking, answering and questioning. They fade away, but returns.

No words can express my thoughts and conflicts... All answers given are but expected answers.... Caged up like a bird, one that silently weeps in the heart... one that is searching for a voice to speak up....

Interest

Did a test (Interest score: RIASEC code) R=realistic, I=investigative, A=artistic, S=social, E=enterprising, C=conventional, after which they generate suggested career... guess what, there's no accountant or auditor in the list.. haha.. but at least, there's financial analyst and personal financial advisor.. ohh, the score that was generated was investigative being the highest, followed by artistic and social with equal score..

The suggested career are super interesting.. there's like archeologist, pharmacist, biologist, teacher, counselors, counselling psychologist, market research analyst.... all but, accounting..

There are important lessons that i've learnt studying accounting, like perseverance... met great people whom i would never have met.... but, if such are the career, then why study accounting and finance?

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study first decide later seems like a very practical thing to do right?

there are many routes leading to one destination (career), and knowledge acquired is never wasted... hmm.. standing at a crossroad, if the traffic light is red, well, good, you can stop and think, but, when it turns green, you'll have to move on..

Life goes on..

Just Random

Assignments are due soon.. Law, business strategy and research.. then, the finals... what a life, uni life... EXAMS... are meant to torture students...

Spoke to someone on Monday, had a really good time. It nice to really sit down and talk to someone.. it's much nicer than posting 'what's on your mind' on facebook... gets you to think and listen, and to express your thoughts as well... will be speaking to her again tomorrow... really hope that apart from 'formal' meetings, i would be able to speak to her too...

watched a movie the other day too.. it's entitled 'Little Miss Sunshine', quite a nice movie...

Is being practical more important or going after your dream more important?

Thoughts are really scattered in this post though.. haven't been posting for quite some time... need to warm up my writing muscles...

Hello world

It has been a long time since i last wrote my bolg..

I do not know what to write..

Quest of the Aucas

Quest of the Aucas.. the real life story of 5 missionaries.. It's truly a story about, obedience, love, sacrifice, forgiveness and reconciliation... It is also about faith and courage...


I just watched a forum/ round table discussion on bloomberg a couple of days ago talking about 'fear, anxiety, aggressiveness and PTSD'... it's really interesting and amazing how our brain works...

It made me wonder about the aucas, they used to kill people at their border and even within their family. It's kinda scary actually. For a child to grow up on that kind of environment, fear and in need for security... it is like a situation where you can't even trust your own family members because they might actually kill you. The trauma that a child went through witnessing their family being killed and having to flee for their life, they grew up in fear, the emotional impact... In a way, it's kind of sad that they need to grow up in such conditions, on the other hand, I think that they are rather brave(high uncertainty tolerance) to be able to stay sane in such conditions...

I do not think they are that evil... But, honestly, I would not have the courage to do what the five missionaries did too... One of the scene that caught my attention was when the mother wanted to bury the child together with the father who wanted to jump 'the great boa', the child asked the father whether he really wanted it to be so, the father asked the child to flee and not let the mother find her again... From here, I found that although they often killed each other, the father still loved the child... There was also anger and fear in the mother's heart, perhaps, if her husband does kill himself, she has no one to protect her anymore and the other aucas might actually kill her and the family... Well, I think, deep in every person, there is this conscience, and there is love and the need to be loved...

'I am your friend, your true friend...' were the last words of Jim Elliot to the aucas...

As a child, at a young age, having to know that your father is going on a mission trip and might never return. The first question would be 'why must you go?' and 'Do you love the aucas more than you loved me?'... Probably not, it was the love that Jim had for the Lord and also obedience... I don't think it was easy for any of the five missionaries to leave their family and obey the Lord's call to mission work... But, their love for the Lord enable them to do so...

and for Jim Elliot's son -having need to go back into the same forest again to share the love of Christ with the same people whom killed your dad...

But, it is really amazing when the Lord works. The changes that can be done....And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity. http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Colossians%203:14&version=NIV

Melancholic- Phlegmatic

Assignments... A major challenge to put 'the end' on the assignments...