I just watched a forum/ round table discussion on bloomberg a couple of days ago talking about 'fear, anxiety, aggressiveness and PTSD'... it's really interesting and amazing how our brain works...
It made me wonder about the aucas, they used to kill people at their border and even within their family. It's kinda scary actually. For a child to grow up on that kind of environment, fear and in need for security... it is like a situation where you can't even trust your own family members because they might actually kill you. The trauma that a child went through witnessing their family being killed and having to flee for their life, they grew up in fear, the emotional impact... In a way, it's kind of sad that they need to grow up in such conditions, on the other hand, I think that they are rather brave(high uncertainty tolerance) to be able to stay sane in such conditions...
I do not think they are that evil... But, honestly, I would not have the courage to do what the five missionaries did too... One of the scene that caught my attention was when the mother wanted to bury the child together with the father who wanted to jump 'the great boa', the child asked the father whether he really wanted it to be so, the father asked the child to flee and not let the mother find her again... From here, I found that although they often killed each other, the father still loved the child... There was also anger and fear in the mother's heart, perhaps, if her husband does kill himself, she has no one to protect her anymore and the other aucas might actually kill her and the family... Well, I think, deep in every person, there is this conscience, and there is love and the need to be loved...
'I am your friend, your true friend...' were the last words of Jim Elliot to the aucas...
As a child, at a young age, having to know that your father is going on a mission trip and might never return. The first question would be 'why must you go?' and 'Do you love the aucas more than you loved me?'... Probably not, it was the love that Jim had for the Lord and also obedience... I don't think it was easy for any of the five missionaries to leave their family and obey the Lord's call to mission work... But, their love for the Lord enable them to do so...
and for Jim Elliot's son -having need to go back into the same forest again to share the love of Christ with the same people whom killed your dad...
But, it is really amazing when the Lord works. The changes that can be done....And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity. http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Colossians%203:14&version=NIV
